yuidirnt and nerrin, thank you so much for the v-gifts ♥ I kind of got inspired and proceeded to spam everyone with these cookies on my own XDD;;

Oh well, now I'm happy I didn't spam you with absolute emo this night, it would have been too much~

My father had his obligatory rant. This time, the topic featured was: Why my 20 year old daughter, doesn't have a boyfriend. and How she should find one, because she will be left alone in her old age, smelling and sick and lonely. She cannot end as a spinster!

In his opinion, I'm some kind of a feminist, that hates all men kind and wants to I dunno, cut their penises off or something.

I'm reading The Shining, and although I'm getting scared i love it XD King''s books are kinda like a train-wreck syndrome. I'm scared and wanna stop, but at the same time can't.

I guess I'm kinda late to the party but what the hell: anyone want a christmas card from me? It'll be without any hand made drawing (unless anyone want a stick figure XD) or drabble, because I'm kinda clueless when it comes to your fandoms, but I can find a cool card right? So if anyone want, you can send me an e-mail with your address msrebellious@gmail.com

and have a photo of the week from empik XD

♥ today i felt pretty o/

aaaaand, i deleted ikoku no romantan anime. i deleted yaoi anime. AGAIN. oh god, i hope new ai no kusabi and sex pistols will be good. speaking of the latter, i CAN'T wait. for my fav pairing, yonekuni x shiro <3 i hope they don't screw up all that angst. please, i know you, japanese animators, hate BL but please ;__;

highly recommended: piano no mori. i know it was good because i couldn't stop watching and i made only one pause, forced actually. usually i can't keep still and watch without pausing so if i don't it means i find it good or even better. and this movie WAS GOOD. i was curious, i awaited what happens next, i as excited and worried, damn, i even cried. beautiful movie. ah. that's why i love good japanese cartoons (and fuck off anyone who says anime isn't a cartoon. cartoon is cartoon. it's a type, way of production, not some damn nationality-belonging-definition. a book is a book, doesn't matter if written in kanji or arabic letters. geez.) mhrrr, more movies like that <3 AND THERE'S MANGA!!!! i'm so excited!!

ANGST 'N EMO BITS:
we're going to have bachelor's party in may. i was actually looking forward to it. even though i don't really click with people at uni. even though i don't have a partner. even though i'll have nothing to eat there (not veggie friendly). even though i don't have any dress. even though i can't drink. even though sm might make me unable to handle it. but i was still kind of happy. but hell, people don't want to go. ok, it's a bit expensive for poor students, 220pln. and then i started to think if i should go. what would i do there? with who? how? geez. i'm down.

* lol, i have 21 "holes" in my brain. and for SM that's A LOT. it's strange to sit, walk and do everything without any change but with the knowledge that i have holes in my head. wow?

* today i looked at my movies folder. untouched, virgin-like folder. i ignored it for months? YEAS? and i watched dark knight. it was worse than the beginning but it was okay. i was tooootally all over dent even though i'm a fan of christian bale. he, as batman, was... barely okay. he was invisible. and of course, joker. awesome role, awesome actor. oh god, how sad that he's dead. i hope next movie will be good. i'm hard to please so it's just a wishful thinking.

* newest one republic's album, "waking up" is awesome. it's soft rock with bits of iceland's rock and maybe a little bit of progressive? but not only. i love it <3

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* id didn't go to my seminar, AGAIN. i'm pushing my luck, seriously. next week, no matter what, i'm there.

* in errie queerie uke should be HASUNUMA. and seme MITSUO. i'd give many things to see it ♥

* went to see knee specialists today. and wow, guy was great. first time in 10? 11? years someone actually LOOKED at my x-rays. he looked and saw. i thought i'd jump on him and push him down since he was kinda cute and touuuched me *sweats*. so he found a problem that might be there or might not (just my build) and finally gave a solution. well, more like something to try. no arthroscopy, he told me to wait as it can be dangerous. so, yeah. i love him. LOVE. he E X P L A I N E D everything. but... what he told me to get are three injections, each 150pln and since they go into knee it's hard to find anyone who'd do it so i'd have to go back to him and pay for each injection. so 3 x 50pln. that is 600pln total. i need to start selling my body, srsly.

* today i've read last chapter of kizuna. i like this series but i've never found it exceptionally good (well, maybe masa x kai and guns'n'roses part <3) but damn. i had tears in my eyes when i saw "the end". it's always this awful feeling when a long running series ends. something close to... loneliness, i guess. what happens to them later? how do they live their lives? do they maintain contact? it hurts (yeah, i'm that sensitive).

I've been a little sick this week, so family made me stay at grandma's place so I wouldn't be dangerous for Dad. Yeah, I've been totally using that time for games and anime D:

( Persona )

As for Gintama, I'm at episode 91 and I'll probably watch 10 or so episodes today, maybe more. That's extreme speed for me, but again, if I was going to school this week, I'd probably watch one or two episodes a day, if anything at all.

I finally got the package I ordered in September that contains my Hetalia... uh, I'm not even that big on Hetalia anymore, but when I was preordering it, it seemed that it's a matter of days when it'll be released, nope, three damned months of waiting and even after it was finally out and they claimed to have sent out all the packages, mine was overlooked, probably because it contained some stuff other than Hetalia and they didn't send it until I mailed them about it.

Dolewicz and his sister's stuff was there as well and there's this funny thing that shows how a woman's heart changes...

( Since it was getting too long, have the heartbreaking story of a bag and woman's heart under a cut. Contains D.Gray-man )

Oh well, I might have considered getting all DOWANT over that bag if they were wearing at least the second uniforms. The first designs do not compare, I think, therefore her bag is not worthy of stealing, especially when it's way too small for my needs~

Oh man, I feel shitty and my head is about to explode, but I want to at least reach episode 100 of Gintama before going to bed >_>

first it was this:

this meant craziness for me and koi. then it was 2 years of fucking waiting. and lusting after THE BOY. and after music. and everything else (handmade animation ;____;!). then cencoroll movie was FINALLY out. then months later i F I N A L L Y downloaded. today i watched. and. i'm disappointed. it was still unique and awesome but... trailer wasn't really a trailer, scenes from there weren't used and... that hurts the most. the scene of boy - tetsu, being "loaded" in cenco was... OMG. and there's nothing like that in the actual movie. or "movie" as it's 25 minutes long. but it's still the first time in a looong time what kept me watching without one pause. and that means something. but i wish i it'd be longer. AND EXAPLAIN ANYTHING. funny thing is that the length doesn't stop me from fangirling over tetsu. TETSUUUU <3 in the end there are some emo boys i love.

and then dad came from the first SM meeting in our city, threw reality into my face and SM, suddenly, became hard to handle. whatever. going to make an icon.

day has too little hours.

( Persona )

It's almost December o.o. By the way, when I finally finish the game, I can count on you guys to give me some fic recs, can I?

It's high time for a wishlist, so...

( tl;dr )

IN SHORT:
1. Make a wishlist of any 10 things you want and post it.
2. If you see someone else with this meme and want to get them something then go for it.

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1. Icons! Of my obsessions, of random quotes, of random fun things.
   
2. Fanfic/fanart! Because it owns my life ♥;
   
3. Postcards! Or letters! That's always awesome~
   
4. Books! Even though I already have too many... Here's my 'wanted' list. I don't mind if they're used or something.
   
5. Merlin stuff! Especially this. But also anything vaguely connected to Merlin, really. Like, dragons! Or knights!
   
6. Calendar for 2010! Preferably somewhat dorm-safe. But we have half-naked guys from Cosmo on our wall, so it's not that much of a restriction.
   
7. Socks! No matter how many I have, it's never enough. Size 38.
   
8. Kindle DX! Or regular Kindle. I'll probably never buy it myself... *sniff*
   
9. New laptop! Not getting that anytime soon, probably.
   
10. Driving license! *SHOT* I'll get it someday...

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